My name is Jay Livingstone and I am tender of the flame and guardian of the sacred fire of Aodhagan. The Elders of Aodhagan and I have been waiting for you for a very long time. The spirit of Aodhagan made himself (for he has presented to me in the male form) known to me during a deep, initiatory ceremony in Malta many years ago.
Over the past two decades I have been on a profound initiatory journey, which has taken me deep into the underworld; passing through the fire I have returned with teachings and understanding.
I now work with the Elders of Aodhagan as tender and guardian of the sacred flame; offering myself as a guide to support others on their own initiatory journey. This journey always takes place in communion with the Elders. You can read more about my personal journey below:
Wanted or unwanted, bidden or unbidden, initiation comes. Several years ago I received my initiation from Aodhagan, and both the Fire and the Elders have been my continuous companions in my life ever since.
From time beyond time lands uncharted and forgotten, a dawn storm entered the room,
Sister Leaf, Brother Twig, Sister Wind, Brother Rain heralding arrival
Shadow swirl, translucent, forming, a messenger had come.
Fully formed, seated proud, perching on footboard
Ruffling deep, dark feather, sharpening razor beak, Brother Crow made himself known
A million years in single tympanic beat of heart
Brother Crow's inky black stare fixing gaze
In silent communion, in silent knowing, falling deeply into abyss-ful eye
A hundred, million worlds simultaneously exploding from inky black
Filling the depths of my Soul.
Cocking of head, Daemonic glint exploding forth with mercurial quickness
filling mind with luminescence, knowledge, and invitation
Holding wing, soaring high, we fly to the ends of Mother Earth, Father Time, and beyond
Falling into inky blackness, the journey had begun.
Falling, falling, for eternity and a day
North is South, South is North
Landing, leaf and bracken embracing naked body
Twilight wrapping her cloak around my skin
Wolf, Bear, Eagle, Tree, Mountain, Stream witnessing arrival to this betwixt place
Welcomed to paths never trod.
Crack of Brother Twig, softness of Sister Grass
Supported by Mother Earth, witnessed by Father Sky
Naked skin bathed in starlight robe
Sister Night and Brother Day blending their energies as one
Held by elements, wondering alone for a year and a day
Inky blackness consuming mind, taking me to the edge of madness
Until on the night that followed I arrived
Space cleared, kindling stacked, wood fetched, fire built, tinder torch ablaze.
Then he arrived once more, Brother Crow
Ruffling of feather, sharpening of beak
Sitting by me in the stillness, opening mouth, uttering enchanted tales of sacred magic
And in the listening, blackness surrendered its grip to blinding white
Then silence surrounded me, coursing through Heart and Soul
I looked for him, but Brother Crow had departed.
Standing tall in the silence, grasping torch, kindling to wood
Springing to life with the ferocity of a million suns pushed inky blackness out of time and space
Fire and smoke penetrating senses, entering skin, bone, and lung
Crackles deafening ears, Aodhagan was alive, we were alive.
Elders gathered, the pipe filled and passed, smoke of understanding filling my essence
Swirling in lung, burning eyes, bringing tears, illusion was washed away
For a millennium and a day the fire was tended, sacred ceremony held
For Millennium and a day did Aodhagan speak.
Sacred Rowan, Apple, Dogwood, Juniper, Pine, Holly and Oak
Walking coals, breathing smoke, purified inside and out.
Then did Brother Crow once more arrive
Obsidian eye, and open beak
Imparting one more tale of enchantment did he speak
Holding wing, soaring high, stars become our destination
Quickening, the room in which I started at dawn did materialise
Sun now clamouring with haste through the window.
Brother Crow, what had happened I did ask
Fixing me with knowing stare, head cocked, glint springing forth
Except no longer a sparkle but a flame, the flame of Aodhagan.
My experience with Aodhagan has given me many insights and understanding.
Through this wisdom, Aodhagan has enabled me to navigate changing times with greater fortitude.